faith-driven lifestyle
faith-driven lifestyle
or the person who has everything and still feels the absence. Threshold Work is not a program. It is a process of being seen.
A personal story of leaving the Catholic Church, seventeen years of spiritual seeking, unnamed physical pain, and the Transfiguration gospel that changed everything. Not a homily. Not an exegesis. A witness — for anyone who has ever wondered if they can come back.
An old Talmudic tradition says Adam didn't even sleep in paradise. He arrived, he breathed, he named things, he loved, he fell, he was gone. And in the eighth hour — before the sin, before the hiding — they ascended to bed as two and descended as four. There were already four people there before anything had been lost. This is a reflection on what intimacy reveals, the identities we build around our wounds, and why there is no recipe for becoming truly known.
So you've done the reading. You understand your attachment style, your patterns, why you react the way you do in relationships. You can name it, explain it, trace it back to where it started. So why are you still doing the same thing? Your body has decades of automated responses that say: vulnerability = danger. That automation runs deeper than thought. It lives in your muscles and breath shortening. This is why cognitive work can help you manage symptoms but often just redirects the underlying pattern.
And so I'm choosing to practice zakhor - the Hebrew command to remember. Not passive nostalgia, but active, intentional remembering that brings past grace into present awareness. To remember that though the problems are piling up, it is just a dark hour, not a dark world. Not a dark life. Just a dark hour. And I've been in dark hours before and light came. My God has a history of meeting me in my emptiness.
For too long, I've treated my relationship with God like a ticket out of hell instead of a doorway to heaven. I've focused on avoiding damnation rather than building paradise. But what if Mary's assumption teaches us to be promise rememberers, blessing celebrators, heaven multipliers?
