The Label You Didn’t Choose
Someone sticks a tag to your forehead, and you take it down, look at it and go very still. Not the label you would have written for yourself. Not even close. And the price on it – the value assigned – is so far from what you know yourself to be worth.
So, you try to explain. You try to correct the record, to say no, that’s not it, that’s not what I meant, that’s not who I am – and the more you say, the more it sounds like protest. Like defensiveness. Like someone who would say exactly that if the label were true.
And sometimes slowly, quietly, you stop arguing. You start carrying the label instead.
The Language I Couldn’t Find
I experienced recently a similar clash when preparing for a podcast interview. The host wanted me to describe in Polish what I do, which should have been easy, after all it’s my first language… But I couldn’t find the words.
Straightforward questions. Simple enough. Except every phrase I reached for came pre-loaded with a category: Catholic retreat. Spiritual direction. Faith coaching. And each category came with a box, and the box came with a lid, and the lid came down fast.
So I kept circling. And what I kept coming back to was this: for most of the time we live next to ourselves. Not broken, not lost in any obvious way. Functioning. Sometimes functioning very well. But there is the life we are actually living, and there is – running parallel, just slightly out of reach – the life that was intended for us. Our real voice. Our original gift. The thing that, when we were young, felt as natural as breathing, and that somewhere along the way became dangerous to claim.
I know this place because I have lived next to myself for long stretches of my life. And I know it because the people who find their way to my work arrive carrying the same quiet exhaustion – the exhaustion of maintaining the gap between who they are and who it is safe to be.
Joseph’s story is about that gap. And about what happens when God refuses to let it stay permanent.
Here Comes the Dreamer
Joseph is the beloved son. First child of Rachel, the wife of Jacob’s heart. He receives the coat – that famous, ridiculous, spectacular coat – not because Jacob is naive about family politics but because the father simply cannot help himself. This child is different. This child sees things.
And Joseph, with the particular innocence of someone who has never learned to manage how he lands on others, tells his brothers his dreams. Straightforwardly. Matter-of-factly. I dreamed that your sheaves bowed down to mine. He is not performing superiority. He genuinely doesn’t understand why this is a problem. He is simply reporting what he saw.
His brothers understand exactly what it means. And they cannot bear it.
Here comes the dreamer, they say, when they see him approaching across the fields. It is not a compliment. It is the sound of a community that has decided to solve the problem of someone’s gift by eliminating the someone.
They throw him into a cistern. No water. Just darkness, and the sound of his brothers eating their meal above him, and the occasional echo of his own voice returning to him from the stone walls.
That is where Joseph’s real story begins. Not with the coat. With the cistern.
The Pipe System
To me it feels like a pipe system. Running through the body, made of something like light. And most of the time, the pipes are misaligned. There are gaps between the sections. The light moves through in flashes – a moment of clarity, a sudden sense of being completely known and completely held – and then the connection breaks and it’s gone again.
Joseph had this. His dreams were not mystical performances. They were moments when the pipes aligned and something true came through. He couldn’t control it. He couldn’t package it. He could only report it, with the directness of someone who doesn’t yet know that truth needs to be translated before it’s safe to share.
The cistern is where Joseph learns that the pipes survive everything.
He goes in as the beloved son. He comes out – sold, unnamed, property – and the gift is still there. The alignment still happens. In Potiphar’s house, in prison, in Pharaoh’s court – at every stage, the same thing that made him unbearable to his brothers turns out to be exactly what is needed. It cannot be sold away from him, falsely accused away from him, imprisoned away from him.
And the Bible says this quietly, without drama: the Lord was with Joseph. In the pit. In the slave house. In the prison. Not arriving at the rescue point. There. In the dark and the misalignment and the confusion. Present the way breath is present – not noticed until you start to listen.
This is not a story about a man who maintained perfect faith through suffering. Joseph had his ash-on-the-tongue days. He asked the cupbearer to mention him to Pharaoh – a request so improbable it borders on absurd – and then waited two more years, forgotten, while the cupbearer went back to his wine. No checkpoints. No guaranteed altars from which the signal reliably transmits. Just a man in a noisy prison, listening for the frequency he first heard over Canaan’s hills, trying to distinguish his own voice from its echoes.
The Gift That Is Also the Wound
The thing that causes our rejection is often the same thing that carries our purpose.
Joseph’s particular way of perceiving – his dreamer’s attunement, his directness, his inability to perform social safety – is the reason his brothers sold him. It is also the reason Potiphar trusted him. It is the reason Potiphar’s wife noticed him, and the reason she destroyed him when he wouldn’t comply. It is the reason the cupbearer remembered him, eventually, and the reason he stood before Pharaoh and said plainly: your dream means seven years of abundance and seven years of famine, and here is what you need to do.
Same gift. Different stages. Different costs.
The slavery spiral in Joseph’s story is real and it’s devastating – and it doesn’t end with Joseph. He rises to second place in Egypt. He saves his family from starvation. He also accepts payment in human lives when the famine money runs out. He builds the system that will, generations later, enslave his own people. The one who was freed becomes, without fully realising it, part of the machinery of others’ captivity. This is not comfortable. It is very human. And it tells us something important: the gift being restored does not mean the confusion is over. Recognition is not a destination. It is a recurring practice.
But – and this is what Joseph’s story will not let go of – God can choose you even here. Not that God planned the cistern. Not that the brothers were instruments of divine strategy, deprived of free will. They chose what they chose. And God, who does not waste, picked up what was thrown away and carried it forward.
What was done to you can become the instrument of your liberation and the liberation of others. Not because suffering is good. But because God is stubborn.
Seven Senses, Seven Weeks
In prison, in that contained cistern-space of separation from everything familiar, Joseph develops a completely new language for his inner experience. He learns to translate what moves through him into words that others can receive. By the time he stands before Pharaoh, he can turn in one breath from prisoner to prophet, from invisible to indispensable. Not because he became someone else. Because he finally found the words for who he always was.
And when his brothers finally come to him in Egypt, the Bible tells us he spoke to them through an interpreter. Joseph, who speaks Egyptian fluently, pretending not to understand his own mother tongue. Because there are places in us so long echoing in the dark that we cannot yet trust them to the open air. We need to hear whether the other is safe before we speak in our true voice again.
That moment of finally speaking – of removing the interpreter, clearing the room, saying come closer to me, I am Joseph your brother – that is Pentecost. That is where this journey ends.
Between here and there: seven Sundays. Seven senses. From the 2nd Sunday of Easter to Pentecost, we move through Joseph’s story sense by sense – hearing, sight, lips, heart, shoulders, hands, feet – each week staying with one moment of his journey and one invitation to attune your own perception a little more honestly.
Not a programme for becoming your full potential. Something more modest and more true: a practice of learning to distinguish your voice from your echoes. Of recognising, a little sooner each time, when you are in the cistern again. Of finding, in the noise of the prison, the frequency that has been there since before you learned to be afraid of it.
The Lord was with Joseph. In every version of the story. In every location. In every confusion.
That has not changed.
Begin the journey – Week 1: Here Comes the Dreamer
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